Tuesday, 30 April 2013

Anticipation


Today’s blog is about fear. Others know it as anticipation. If any of you have ever talked to me, you know I am a pessimist of the highest degree. This blog will be posted a week that will be very stressful for me. You can’t imagine me being stressed because I don’t give a shit normally but this week, I am doing something I have only done a few times before. I am going to meet authors. Yep, this is the week of Romantic Times Convention in Kansas City, Missouri.

I am writing this on Sunday while I am doing laundry. I am starting to think about what I am going to pack and if I need to take anything dressy. Oh, who the hell am I kidding? I don’t do dressy. I will be packing lots of books and the scary part is they are not all mine. I am taking a box of books for a certain someone whose name rhymes with Mia Ashlinn.

I was going to get a new car for the trip, but I decided to wait—mainly because I hate talking to salesmen. I am going to rent a car instead. Renting takes one stressful thing off my list. Now on to what else I need to pack. Booze. I have one bottle of Kinky, but I think I am going to grab one more. Other than that and Sprite, I have no idea what else to take. I am debating on buying new luggage, but I think I am just going to snag some from my sister. She has lots and lots of it.

This is becoming more and more real as I type this, and that means my anxiety level is rising as well.
Most of you who know me think I am confident and never get freaked out and normally, I don’t, but this week I will be talking to people who matter. I am going to have to be nice, which I don’t do very well. I have to be patient. Again, I don’t do that well either. The only saving grace will be that I will be with someone who might be more nervous than me, Mia.

I will be picking Mia up in St Louis on Thursday and driving across Missouri to Kansas City. That will be the easiest part of the whole trip for me. I love to drive so this will be a piece of cake. Friday will not be too bad, either. Mia and I will be on our own till mid-afternoon, just playing around the hotel and maybe venturing out a little bit. Things will amp up on Friday afternoon when Lori King and Tara Clegg make it to town. I love these girls, but I will be meeting Lori for the first time which means I will be a little skittish. I have talked to her on the phone but who isn’t nervous the first time they actually meet someone?

I like to have a general plan but not one that will drive me crazy with anxiety.  I know that another Perv, Tracey Reid, is having drinks in her hotel room, but I am not sure I can handle that. On my best day, I am anti-social. So who knows if I will end up going to it. I am going to be meeting up with some other friends. Hopefully, that will calm me, but who knows? I am sure I will start to relax after that first night. If not, poor Mia will have to tranq me.

 I will probably be the most comfortable when we actually make it to the signing.  I can talk to anyone for a few minutes because chances are they will forget me about 5 minutes after I walk away. I am hoping that by Saturday night I will have let go of my anxiety. But again, who knows? So if you see a story on the news about someone being shot with a tranquilizer gun, it was probably me and Mia will be the culprit. Don’t worry I will testify that I asked for it.


Sinfully Sarcastic,
Shmuttmeister

14 comments:

  1. All I can say is take a deep breath and relax....try and have some fun....a lot of these people you have talked to many times they will be no different in person...you are going to have so much fun and will make so many memories....we love you for who you are don't act any differently...that wouldn't be the real Tina......have an amazing time...I wish I could be there to meet you all...can't wait to hear the stories

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  2. I hope you are pleasantly surprised at what you guys can do together. I know that Tracey would make you feel at home at her get together and that you would have a blast, she seems like a truly sweet person. Don't worry too much about being Nice just be you and I am sure it will be great. I know that you are wonderful (chapstick applied prior to comment) take one step at a time and have a blast. Travel safe and have a drink for me.

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    1. I am not really worried at meeting Tracy, I know she will be so sweet. I just don't do well at parties.

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  3. I'm not sure if this will help or hurt, but I'm nervous too! I'm nervous about meeting you and Mia, and even Tara....though I have the mental image of Tara taking a Dildo from one of her children for some reason so she seems a little less scary. I haven't been to a convention so I don't have a clue what to pack, and the only book I'm bringing is Mia Ashlinn's so that she can sign it! We'll muddle through it together!

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    1. I am glad that I am not the only one who is nervous. I always just dress for comfort :0

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  4. I can't wait, but I'm nervous as hell about meeting everyone. I have serious social anxiety, so I don't do in person as well as online.

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    1. I feel your pain but once we all get there hopefully we will relax *fingers crossed*

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  5. You did great when I met you at AAD - much better than I did. :) You will have a great time!!

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    1. I had Kris to help with that one. You were awesome at AAD. I had never met you before but you were so sweet.

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  6. Well, I would have talked you off the ledge tonight, but I can't get into chat from my iPod, so I will just wait to put you at ease in person! I am here at RT all alone and I don't know a soul. I will just talk to random strangers until someone takes pity on me and let's me stand next to them so I look like I am not a total loser!......until you get here, Tina......then, in the immortal words of Jennifer Hudson....I'M GONNA MAKE YOU LUFF ME.......!! At least you 4 ladies have each other to run interference and remember, EVERYONE IS FRIENDLIER WITH KINKY INVOLVED!!

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